When there is a change.....

I think we are generally wired to resist any form of change in our daily life's. ordinarily, doing the same thing for a long period of time can be very tiring but you really do not know how much you are embedded in those things until something happens to take you from the status quo.





I complain about not having enough time for myself, lack of adequate sleep, having my little girl ask too many questions, etc Maybe God heard my complains and decided to teach me a lesson. Recently I was opportune to attend a four day conference in calabar. Ordinarily, when I am going for any trip, I drag my daughter along since her dad has decided he isn't for nose-poking into the ways other people live their life's. Luckily we are getting around that. Anyways, right from when I was supposed to pack my bags for the trip, I started to miss my family.

Then it was time to say the goodbye for four nights. How do you tell a 3 year old that you are travelling for a few days....I tried and said...hey dear, mama is going to calabar this evening. You can imagine the shock of my life when my daughter replied, I don't want to go to school, I want to go to calabar. I was like, will you stay with your daddy and she goes, I want to go to calabar. Then the guilt trip started, I started wondering why I was going for the conference - but shouldn't I be thrilled that i was having a break from my routine???? the trip already felt like an intrusion into my everyday life.



I almost missed my flight and I think a part of me was sad when I realised that I was going to make the flight and not postpone the trip by some hours.  I think every woman gets to this point in their lifes where you feel that you are bored or want more from life because your established routine doesn't cut out the type of things you would have expected to be doing in life.  All girls just wanna have fun...remember.

But when you are actually faced with the situation that takes you away from home, you tend to understand that you are actually where you wanna be. I wrote this article during my flight to calabar. I will enjoy my trip no doubt....but even though  I was able to tell my hubby that I will miss him, my eyes wedged with tears when I imagine my daughter's reaction when I return on Saturday. The last time I took off, when i resurfaced, she didn't sleep for about 48hours.....bad bad mommy!!!!!